Fantasia Friday

Just wanted to share the fact that Elizaveta's full album, Beatrix Runs, was released January 24th! A perfect blend of operatic pop with an underlying hint of Alicia Keys. Sooo awesome! Victory, Nightflyers, Orion, and Odi Et Amo are my personal favs. I'm always looking for inspiration. Who's your preferred artist atm?  Happy Friday all....

ROW80 Oops!

Sooooo.... who else knew this ROW80 gig had a biweekly check in? Dude! I'm so unprepared I feel like I've been caught with my hand in the proverbial cookie jar. Seriously, I haven't set foot in the  gym yet this week (though I am at this very moment waiting for my hubby to get home, so we can go together) and then let's not forget the pilates class scheduled tomorrow at the crack of dawn. Yay me.

And revisions? Er...no. That's not happening. Instead, I've written a brand new thirty some-odd page first chapter. OMG! Someone reign me in already!!

 I hope Sunday's check in consists of more doing and less promising. Oh, hubby's home, gotta run!

ROW80 Right on Track

Alright peeps! Since I only just realized today is check in for ROW80 and I'm only half awake with my hubby snoring by my side, this will be short-- Oh, and completely unimpresssive.

As for excercise: I joined the gym on Wednesday, took a Pilates class, and half an hour of some nutso cycling class (I'll tell you more about this later) on Thursday morning, and then dragged myself to the gym Saturday. And yes, I'm still hurting. Alot. Not bad for my first week IMO!

And MS revisions are going well, so far I'm on track--though it looks like I have more work ahead of me than I realized.

I'm way too tired to add myself to the linky, but will get on tomorrow and finish up! Night all!!

ROW80: Do You Fear Your Dream?

Jenny Hansen over on Kait Nolan's ROW80 asked today: Do you fear your dream? To which I immediately thought:

Huh? Who said I was afraid? I never said that! Who have you been talking to? Unbelievable... 

Okay, okay, there might be a little truth to this... Humph, alright, a lot of truth to this. In fact, if I were to let you further into my brain, the inner dialogue would go something like this:

My dream?

If you're referring to that misty, elusive, crazy fantasy where I find myself agented and published, well then yes, I am afraid. 

Not just afraid, though, that would imply that there's some space in my mind where I'm slightly aware of the stupidity of the feeling. Petrified...yes that's more like it: Frozen in place, spine tingling, short breathed, hair raised, terror. 


Yep. That's me. For if I had any courage at all, I would have driven myself harder last year. I would have forced myself to revise my MS ten times more, would have sought aid from my CPs, would have sent my MS out to more than three agents. Especially when one of those three agents requested a full. What the hell is wrong with me? I should have sent it to 50. Why didn't I push myself, stretch at the seams, snap those threads that hold me tight?


 Jenny nailed it.


I'm afraid. For all the reasons she cited (and more):

1. What if I write the book and nobody buys it?
2. What if I write the book and everybody buys it…can I be that brilliant again?
3. What if I can’t meet the deadlines of a publishing contract?
4. Who would want to read what I have to say?
5. When I say what I have to say, they’ll know who I am.

Yes, yes and yes!

But the great thing about a new year is that with it comes a new chance. And it's never too late to change. I know, exciting, right? So what to declare? What amazing new feats will I be promising this time round? Pfftt....right. Oh, no, I'm not falling for it...not this time, buddy! Mr. New Year will not be suckering me into the glimmering labyrinth of promise. This time, I'm keeping it simple, foot forward with a pair of what Jenny refers to as "titanium panties" (though I probably need an entire titanium suit). I'm going to toughen up, and I'm going to claim what I've been wanting. No more waiting on the side lines wondering what 'could' be. So here's the list, short, and concise.

1. Exercise at least 3 days a week

2. Revise 15 pages minimum of current MS daily

Wow! I feel empowered already! Look out 2012!!